Christmas 2008!

Well the snow fall on the foot measured on the ground already, secured a rather quiet day at home for me this White Christmas, 2008.

I had made some calls, and had some calls come back my way, to wish both a Christmas Cheer and for the best in the New Year!

My biggest hope is that I would be allowed my freedom to rest and roam, with truly a private life of my own just like all other Free Americans with their civil liberties. To be gainfully employed, and to press onward as a PhD student. It would also be nice to secure an intimate relationship with a fine young lady, and enjoy experiencing courtship and dating once again.

I thought it may have been Michelle and her mom in a wheelchair last night after Christmas Eve Service in the church parking lot, but uncertainty seem to have prevailed over me once again. Although, it maybe possible that this upcoming Sunday service maybe yet an opportunity for another look.

"When I go fast, I go slow; When I go slow, I go fast!"

It reflects on life's lesson in going too fast with the natural tendency for me to overlook things and cause errors along the way, thus forces me to go back over to correct them later. However, if I were to take a slower more pragmatic focused approach, with less or no mistakes being made, I would completely finish in less time.

Nevertheless is its relevance in my case here, in that it's quite a slow process in knowing for certain if it has been Michelle all this time, being in such a hurry as if fleeing the church scene once the benediction is over, and we're dismissed from the church sanctuary. I've been going so fast that I wasn't really looking, thus missing out on identifying who were truly were at my peripheral surroundings. Now if I were to have slowed down and considered taking in my surroundings and those in it, the process of positively identifying if it truly was Michelle, my ex-wife, would have been a certainty months ago.

Most Sincere,
Mickey Tovio Scanlan