Of course, I want to be able to be qualified for a very good job I am passionate for; I'd like to have a girlfriend or wife with a few kids in the future. To have paid off all of my debts and be very close to paying off a mortgage for a home while having a couple of vehicles to transport my family and an economy car for daily commuting, and of course a dog or two. This is a dream that I have the biggest difficulty in achieving or have had trouble trying to face in all my life thus far. It's due to trying to overcome this major identity crisis that I am caught in. I have to make trips like this one today to Hawaii to my see my immediate family (parents/siblings), or family and friends from my childhood and adolescent years in order for others like the FEDS/PUBLIC to accept and appreciate me beyond a reasonable doubt that I am honestly Mickey Tovio Scanlan, and that I should be given the right just as any other American, to live the American Dream without harassments, deprivation or oppression.
That I should be given the opportunity to go to school online, or to be employed with other learners in my courseroom, and be among co-workers that absolutely believe in me without a doubt that I'm Mickey Tovio Scanlan to learn with them or to work next to them on a daily basis; While believing that in their minds they are confidently certain, positive and firm to rule out that I'm some imposter, fugitive, terrorist, or a criminal that's a threat to my community or in our society in general.
When will this dream become reality? Apparently it takes a long time, and taking trips like this morning to Hawaii to visit most or all that were part of my childhood and adolescent years is part of this deliberating process. I know what I want to do with my adult life, and it unfortunately has to take me such a snails pace in order for me to even be allowed to be employed among others that respect me as my true self. To respect me as me Mickey Tovio Scanlan in order for me to gain merit from doing my best in the workplace, and have the same opportunistic value for achievements as any other employee while being confirmed in the minds of my employers that it was hard legitimate efforts put out by myself when job evaluation time comes around. To be in a work place where there isn't any type of mind games influenced by the FEDS while an employee that would like to take pride in my work.
The Inauguration Ceremony for the next US President is in early 2009, maybe my hopes of being liberated from such an oppressed and deprived life will be take place than for me. I also am in a pending position for my permanent residential status of being an American Citizen with USCIS, United States Citizenship and Immigration Services due sometime later this year. I more importantly though, must continue to satisfy what is the biggest constant in my life, whom are my parents/siblings, and this is while I try to hope and dream for the best in this so called "Land of the Free!" to be redeemed and vindicated from being cynically misperceived or misidentified.
Most Sincere,
Mickey Tovio Scanlan
